Ian its hard to believe that tonight one year ago was the beginning of the end of you being with us. I have been remembering that evening even more so tonight and remember our last conversion which was filled with chat and laughter. Its been a really difficult year but now we have something to look forward to later this year. I know you are with us in spirit and looking down on us. I hope you are proud of the way we have coped with everything this year. Laura and Matt have done you proud over this year you haven't been with us and they have shown strength I didn't know they had. Life is very difficult without you and everyday I wish you were here and I could pick up the phone and speak to you. We all miss you so much and wish you were here. Sending much love to you up into the sky where Charlie says you are. Look over us always xxxx